lilfurnace

I finally get to play poker for the first time in like two weeks. Yay for me! I've been playing poker since I was 6 years old and have always been fascinated by the game. I owe this fascination to my father who taught us all how to play poker. However I didnt start playing Texas Hold'Em until High School. I have an uncanny ability to win at this particular game especially when it comes to getting a flush. That just seems to be my lucky hand. I am very proud to admit that I have never once cheated in a card game despite what some may think. I've been witnessed to get three flushes, one right after the other. I hope you will all wish me luck and I shall update you on the outcome of tonights game. See ya

I don't mean for this entry to start some weird type of diary battle so read with care. Out of sheer morbid curiosity I decided to read my ex-fiance's live journal. Upon reading her most recent post I was inclined to post my own update. In her entry she posed several questions as to why I was with the new girl that I am getting to know and hang out with. No we are not dating. Since my ex does not know this girl in any way I am not going to defend her either. This is because I know more about her than my ex, and also do not need to defend those that I associate with. According my ex this girl is "not prettier, smarter, more talented/funny OR anything that could be seen as intelligent, confident or stable?" and "and this girl is not good enough for him." And that my ex herself is "prettier, smarter, and more talented/intelligent/funny" What I would like to know is if new girl is not "good enough" for me, does she think that she was too good for me. Since apparently other people have stated that I was not good enough for her this is why I ask. I love my ex always have, always will. I just wish she would not criticise those she lacks any knowledge of. I understand that she is past what any of us could consider exhaustion. There is no way I could ever handle three jobs. So maybe I have been hypocritical and defend new girl but damn it I am a loyal friend if nothing else. And when you criticise those I decide to associate with I feel that you are criticising me.

I dont expect my ex or anyone else I know to get along with the friends I make. All I ask is that people consider the fact that not everyone is like them. And if you have something critical to say about something say it to them directly not behind their back. Again I do not mean this an any sort of attack, or insult merely what I feel. Good night all enjoy the rest of your evening.
Ah screw the spelling errors

There was a time when I could have answered that question in detail. I lost myself, lost who I was, and now have the opportunity to get it all back. I'm contemplating moving back to california in a yr or two but this is only a contemplation. First I need to rediscover myself and bring back to life the fire that once blazed inside of me. What do I want to do with life? Where do I want to go? Who am I? All good questions to which the answers will come in time. Time is definitely something I have in abundance. I've been working on Katie's Senior Seminar project where I play the Father in Six Characters in Search of An Author. I dont know if I prefer being a techie as oppose to an actor but they both have their merits. The techie appeals to my need for the shadows, to be the hand pulling the strings so to speak. While the actor feeds my need for attention, food for the ego. Perhaps I could do both but I know neither are my calling. I'm leaning more towards professional poker player. And its not because of the recent popularity poker has gained. My dad taught me to play poker when I was a little kid. I love it and would enjoy making a living out of it. Who knows I've got time this is the one thing I know for certain. Till next time this is Invader Pagan signing off.

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I told you!

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Describe your current girlfriend/boyfriend:	Where the Wild Things Are
Describe where you want to be:	Wherever I May Roam
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Have you ever been screwed out of something by someone you know didnt deserve it. I know I have. Time and time again those less qualified, less deserving, or flat out less than me (in my own mind) have beaten me to the punch. I really dont feel that I am better than anyone, I'm just pissed off and venting. Before I started my job at Best Western I used to work for the local tourist train. Since the job was only seasonal I wasnt surprised when it ended. I was surprised by the fact that I didnt get the job I was promised. Ok maybe promise is too strong a word more like led to believe. Then I found out that a position was available for "Lead Man". This is pretty much an assistant manager position. I applied, was intereviewed and beaten once more by a no good heroine addict. And people tell me there's no justice in this world HA! I suppose it could be worse at least I still have a job.

This is the first entry I have made on an online journal in a long time. So for now I will say hi and that I dont have much to say :-)